The feeling of guilt is real, but it is also what makes it kinky. At the end of the day, do what is comfortable enough for you, otherwise, it could be mentally challenging for yourself.
Nice sharing so far! Pls continue.
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Originally Posted by playplayonly99
Ok now I need to come clean with something - I'm actually very religious. This might surprise you given all the naughty things I've done. But faith has always been a big part of my life. Growing up I was very involved in cell groups, bible studies, church camps and all that. So you can imagine that that there was a lot of conflict between these two aspects of my life.
For example I would spend the night fucking myself with whatever I toy I had at home. Then in the morning I would feel so so guilty, but when I go to church I'll feel better, like cleansed of my sins. Then I would feel like hey everything is alright! It felt like it gave me permission to be a slut. In fact I would say all my slutty behaviour made me am outstanding Christian - I was trying to compensate for my sins!
My absolute lowest point was when I went to church with a buttplug in me. I was 17 at the time. I was wearing an innocent white dress, sleeveless, that reached below the knees. But below I wasn't wearing any panties. The buttplug wasn't that stimulating, in fact it kinda hurt whenever I sit or squatted down - but the situation of me being plugged up in the House of God was so humiliating but so arousing then throughout the whole time I could feel pussy fluid dripping down my thigh. Worst of all I was leading prayer for one part in front a congregation of about 100 people. I was saying and singing the Grace of God while being filled in my butt, with cream dripping out of my naked pussy onto the floor....I fucking couldn't believe I managed to get through that. I got home and legit cried cause I felt so guilty lol. I sweared I'll stop doing slutty things from them on.
That lasted about a week.
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